Scared

I'm afraid of the dark. Well, not exactly. It's a bit more complicated and weird than that, because I'm a pretty complicated and weird person. It's like as soon as the sun goes down and other people go to sleep, everything is ten times more frightening than it should be. I don't know why. As a result of my increasing fear of the dark I have started staying up really late reading or on the Internet, because I want to put of the moment when I switch the lights out and abandon my distractions. It works quite well, because I only start trying to sleep when I'm absolutely exhausted, so it doesn't take that long for me to fall asleep. Even then I manage to freak myself out a little bit. I think that if I didn't have to sleep, I wouldn't. Sometimes I don't.
When I do sleep, if I have to go to the bathroom then I end up spending about five minutes taking the three steps to the bathroom door. when I get really scared I freeze up. Most of the time I try to avoid drinking too much before I go to bed.
I'm not really sure what to do about all this, but I think that I might have to get a night light. I'm 12. I'm not really sure how I'm gonna explain that one to my mother.

I wish I didn't have to sleep.